MIT毕业近一年仍失业——吐槽

8作者: TimGubth6 个月前
(这不是解决问题的抱怨,这只是我需要倾诉我的想法,因为我身边没有人理解我的抱怨) 我不知道还能向谁倾诉了,但我很不好意思地说,我们快要迎来我二月份毕业(*6系*)一周年的纪念日了,而我仍然失业,这让我和我的家人都很沮丧。我申请了数百份工作,找了经常招聘的科技人士修改我的简历,定制了求职信,获得了推荐,与我人脉圈中的相关人士交流,在面试中表现出色,但都无济于事。我从拒绝我的雇主那里得到的反馈,从来都不是说我有什么问题,只是他们找到了在特定行业或技术栈方面有现有经验的其他人。我怎么能在入门级竞争呢?而且,我越是找不到工作,在雇主眼中情况就越糟。我在本科期间有两个实习经历作为我的“工作经验”,仅此而已,一个是在一家知名公司,一个是在一家初创公司。我的个人项目,很不幸,没有那么深入,但我不确定这在多大程度上影响了我。考虑到世界上的情况,我排除了某些科技行业,但我真的不认为这应该成为一个障碍。 我知道就业市场很糟糕,但我最近真的陷入了抑郁。感觉我被卖了一个谎言,说麻省理工学院的名号会为我打开以前无法进入的大门,但似乎没有任何东西能帮助我找到工作。更糟糕的是,当我遇到老朋友时,他们甚至无法掩饰他们对“我仍然”失业的震惊。所以我不得不假装这只是一个间隔年,一切都在计划之中。我开始接受一个事实,那就是我可能永远无法在行业内从事*软件工程师或科技*方面的工作,这太糟糕了!也许现在是时候改变职业了,我不知道要改变什么。与其他人相比,我在麻省理工学院时从来没有感觉良好,所以这一切都感觉像是证明我没有足够的技能来从事我选择的领域。 我甚至不能用所有这些空闲时间来做我的爱好,因为我花了很多时间申请工作、刷负面新闻和闷闷不乐。我真的很感激我能搬回家和父母一起住。我想他们很高兴我能回来一段时间。但现在我开始觉得自己是个累赘和负担,尤其是作为那个只是……在那里的*中间的妹妹*。我感觉就像一束烟花,绽放出色彩(每个人都惊叹不已),然后……什么都没有了。我正在考虑开始一些志愿/副业项目,但我的脑海中一直有一个声音告诉我,我一无是处,因为我赚不到钱。我是一个失败者。
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(This is not a problem-solving rant this is a I need to release my thoughts cuz no one in my life understands rant)<p>Not sure where else to turn to but I&#x27;m extremely embarrassed to say we&#x27;re nearing the 1 year anniversary of my Feb graduation (*course 6*) and I&#x27;m still unemployed, to the dismay of me and my family. I&#x27;ve applied to hundreds of jobs, tailored my resume with tech folks who regularly hire, tailored cover letters, gotten referrals, spoken to relevant connections in my network, done really well in interviews, all to no avail. The feedback I&#x27;ve received from asking employers who rejected me is never something wrong about me, just that they found someone else with pre-existing experience in that particular industry or tech stack. How am I supposed to compete with that at an entry level? And the longer I go without work, the worse it gets in the eyes of employers. I have two internships from back in undergrad as my &quot;work experience&quot; but that&#x27;s it, one at a known company and one at a startup. My personal projects were not super intensive unfortunately, but I&#x27;m not sure how much that&#x27;s affecting me at this point. Given the way things are going in the world, I remove certain tech sectors from consideration, but I really don&#x27;t think that should be a handicap.<p>I knew the job market was bad going into it, but recently, I&#x27;ve genuinely fallen into depression. It feels like I was sold this lie that the MIT name would open doors previously inaccessible to me, but nothing seems to be helping me land a job. Sucks more when I run into old friends who can&#x27;t even hide their shock that I&#x27;m <i>still</i> unemployed. So I have to pretend this is just a gap year and all part of the plan. I&#x27;m starting to come to terms with the fact that I might never work in industry as a *software engineer or in tech*, and that sucks! Maybe it&#x27;s already time for a career change, I don&#x27;t know to what. I never felt too good about myself at MIT compared to others and so this all feels like proof that I&#x27;m not skilled enough to work in my chosen field.<p>I can&#x27;t even do my hobbies with all this free time because I spend a lot of it applying to jobs, doomscrolling, and sulking. I am really grateful that I was able to move back home with my parents. I think they were happy to have me back for a bit. But now I&#x27;m starting to feel like a drag and burden, especially as the *middle child sister* who’s just… there. I feel like a firework that exploded in bursts of color (everyone ooed and ah-ed), and then... nothing. I&#x27;m considering starting some volunteer&#x2F;side projects, but persistently, in the back of my mind, is this voice telling me I&#x27;m worthless because I can&#x27;t make any money. I am a failure.