问 HN：搞砸了，追不上了
1 分•作者: findingMeaning•8 个月前
我把生活搞砸了。我从事一个冷门行业，感觉自己跟不上技术发展的步伐。虽然在我居住的地方，我的薪水还算不错。但如果我丢了这份工作，就很难再找到另一份了。基本上，我等于失业了。我的客户是美国的。
我能理解研究论文，也能看懂代码，但却无法在一周内复现它们。即使有源代码，要复现一篇论文也很难。
然后我看到人们都在吹捧那些刚起步的人写的博客。这让我开始怀疑自己存在的意义。
我不知道自己是什么时候、在哪里犯了错。
难道我只是懒惰吗？我每天对着屏幕12个小时。我很容易分心。我必须工作才能完成每周的任务。专注工作的时间是6-8个小时，剩下的时间都是不专注的工作。
在生活中获得任何东西都太难了。生活感觉麻木了。
人工智能正在蚕食我所擅长的技能。我开始怀疑自己是否真的学到了什么，还是仅仅是知道一些东西。
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I messed up with life. I work in a niche and I feel like I can't catch up with progress. I earn fairly decent salary for where I live. If I lose this job, I won't have another one. I am basically jobless. Working for US client.<p>I understand research papers, I understand the code, but I can't replicate it in a week.
It's very hard to replicate a paper even with source available.
Then I read people praising blogs from someone who is barely getting started.
It puts me in a situation where I question my whole existence.
I do not know when and where I messed up.
Am I just lazy? I am in front of a screen 12 hours a day. I am distracted. I have to work to meet my weekly quota. Focused work is 6-8 hours and remaining is unfocused work.
It's very hard to get anything in life. Life feels so numb.
AI is eating what I was skilled at. I started questioning if I ever learnt anything or just knew stuff.