我已经在和职业倦怠斗争了18年了。
1 分•作者: ianberdin•5 个月前
我编程已经 18 年了，遇到过各种各样的问题。但可能最重要、最难的一个问题——对我来说，也是我认为对很多人来说最大的瓶颈——是身体的极限。这被称为“倦怠”。
“倦怠”是一个非常宽泛的术语，它只是模糊地描述了实际发生了什么，以及你为什么不能——或者只是不想——工作。这个问题困扰我很久了：它让我无法大量工作，无法高效工作，无法取得成果，也无法创办一家初创公司。
在那段时间里，我收到了大量的建议——来自亲人、医生、ChatGPT、Gemini、互联网上的文章和评论等等。我尝试了很多方法：
- 番茄工作法计时器；
- 鼻贴；
- 严格按照规定的时间工作；
- 大量步行和锻炼；
- 维生素B、辅酶Q10、L-茶氨酸、肌酸、L-精氨酸、5-羟色胺；
- 抗抑郁药；
- 晚上 9-10 点睡觉；
- 完全改变饮食，戒掉糖，或者相反，增加糖的摄入量。
这么多变量……我不能说我找到了解决方案：每次都不一样。我已经厌倦了。
最近，多亏了人工智能——更确切地说，是一个大型语言模型——我发现了一个有趣的工具。一天晚上，在散步的时候，我打开了 Gemini，开始抱怨：我又累了，效率低下，倦怠了。像往常一样，它吐出了一大堆建议。我真是受够了！我说：“靠，我已经厌倦了这些建议。我什么都试过了，我不想再听了。你能别再建议了吗？就问问题。更好的是——像认知行为疗法（CBT）治疗师那样提问，这样我就可以自己深入挖掘原因了。”
然后，奇迹发生了。它真的停止了建议，开始最多问一两个问题。那时，工作开始了，见解开始涌现。一些问题和答案让我流下了眼泪。这真是难以置信。
最后，我发现了从未考虑过的原因。原来我害怕部署。我害怕一切都会崩溃。这种恐惧导致了拖延：我开始无休止地准备，铺设安全网，以免摔倒。我会被准备工作困住，不断添加更多功能；完成变得更加困难，部署变得更加可怕。我陷入了焦虑：部署感觉很可怕，截止日期也延误了。为了赶上进度，我工作和思考得更多。我的认知资源耗尽了——就这样。
根本原因不是我睡得晚；是恐惧。一旦我意识到这一点，我决定备份所有内容，拍摄快照，并部署到测试服务器，而不是像以前那样直接部署到生产环境。毕竟，我是一个独自创业的创始人。
没有人能帮助我挖掘得这么深。我花了几个小时回答 Gemini 的问题，日复一日。我发现的东西真是太棒了。从来没有人像那样帮助过我。
大型语言模型不仅仅帮助我们编写代码——它们帮助我们发现自己的问题。我非常激动，不得不分享。
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I’ve been programming for 18 years and have run into all sorts of problems. But probably the most important and hardest one—the biggest bottleneck for me, and I think for many others—is that the body has its limits. It’s called burnout.<p>Burnout is a very broad term that only vaguely describes what actually happened and why you can’t—or just don’t want to—work. This subject has tormented me for a long time: it keeps me from working a lot, from working productively, from getting results, and from building a startup.<p>Over that time I’ve gotten tons of advice—from loved ones, doctors, ChatGPT, Gemini, articles and comments on the internet, and so on. I’ve tried a bunch of things:
– a pomodoro timer;
– nasal strips;
– working strictly during set hours;
– lots of walking and exercise;
– B-vitamins, co-enzyme Q10, L-theanine, creatine, L-arginine, 5-HTP;
– antidepressants;
– going to bed at 9–10 p.m.;
– completely changing my diet, cutting out sugar, or, conversely, upping my sugar intake.<p>So many variables… I can’t say I’ve found a solution: every time it’s different. I’m sick and tired of it.<p>Recently, thanks to AI—more precisely, an LLM—I discovered an interesting tool. One evening, while out walking, I pulled up Gemini and started complaining: once again I’m tired, unproductive, burned out. As usual it spat out a huge wall of advice. I was so fed up! I said, “Fuck, I’m already sick of these tips. I’ve tried everything, I don’t want any more. Can you stop advising? Just ask questions. Better yet—ask like a CBT therapist so I can dig down to the cause myself.”<p>And then the magic happened. It really did stop advising and started asking at most one or two questions. That’s when the work began, the insights started flowing. Some questions and answers brought tears to my eyes. It was incredible.<p>In the end I uncovered causes I’d never even considered. Turned out I have a fear of deploying. I’m afraid everything will break. That fear led to procrastination: I began preparing endlessly, laying down safety nets so the fall wouldn’t hurt. I’d get so caught up in prep that I kept adding more features; finishing became harder, and deploying even scarier. I slid into anxiety: deploying felt terrifying, deadlines slipped. To catch up, I’d work and think even more. My cognitive resources would hit zero—and that was it.<p>The root wasn’t that I go to bed late; it was fear. Once I realized that, I just decided to back up everything, take snapshots, and deploy to a test server instead of straight to prod, like I used to. After all, I’m a solo bootstrap founder.<p>No one else could have helped me dig this deep. It took me several hours answering Gemini’s questions, day after day. The things I uncovered are fucking awesome. No one has ever helped me like that.<p>LLMs don’t just help us write code—they help us discover our own problems. I’m absolutely thrilled and had to share.